hello.
its been long since I've blogged and since i'm in need for a place to rationalize my thoughts, here goes.
Recently I've been feeling rather fatigued, spiritually and physically. After ToK week it seems as though the drive to carry on has been diminished. But there's something about this situation that has caused me to reflect on this marathon called life: It takes just one small compromise to throw a person off his guard.
That compromise for me came in the form of watching television after the presentation as a form of destressing. I let my guard down and started a whole series of succumbing to temptation. Its not only in the big things (e.g. ToK presentation) that God calls us to be consistent and obedient, it is also in the small things where we should always be on our guard with. This verse speaks volumes about what i should be doing with the small things:
"'Well done, my good servant!' his master replied. 'Because you have been trustworthy in a very small matter, take charge of ten cities'" Luke 19:17
There's this satisfaction that comes with believing in Christ and being consistent in my daily walk with Him. Its a quiet harvest and might not be as obvious as personal gratification, but it certainly is much more fulfilling than anything this world can provide. I thank God for opening the eyes of my heart to the right things in life which i need to do and for empowering me to crucify my sinful nature. Indeed the power that temptation has over us weakens when we walk normally with Jesus and are transformed into Christ likeness.
"And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord's glory, are being transformed into His likeness and ever increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit." 2 Cor 3:18
Today during break i looked back at my past quiet time sessions and what i wrote in my book. Find that i need to refresh my mind continually to what i've learnt because these are things which make up the core of my beliefs and should be practised daily no matter the circumstance. One thing i remember learning about is that what seperates us from our sinful self is how much of the right things we are exposed to, and another thing that i need to remember to apply is to have endurance to crash through my quitting points.
"Blessed is the man who endures trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life" James 1:12
Pray that I will guard my thoughts well and that the Holy Spirit will fill me with all that is good and righteous. Quitting points are tissue paper not bricks!
filled with joy- jon
