you really see who your friends are when things are good and they dont need your help.

true friends stick through thick and thin.

another way is to just look at my tagboard

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sometimes i wonder why i'm so hated.

i guess i dont have any friends.

-zhang

found it apt to post something before the end

a little bit more.

battle to the end.

oh the things we tell ourselves to get motivated.

but i cant wait! 

excite.

"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is fair, whatever is pure, whatever is acceptable, whatever is commendable, if there is anything of excellence and if there is anything praiseworthy-keep thinking about these things" - Phil 4:8

-Zhang

hit the (paper) wall.

run fat boy run.

-zhang

dead inside

and not deserving of salvation.

-blank

Deep Down in My Heart

I just listened to this song thrice on my ipod.

and yes some tears. real men cry.

Cry Out To Jesus

To everyone who's lost someone they love 
Long before it was their time 
You feel like the days you had were not enough 
when you said goodbye 

And to all of the people with burdens and pains 
Keeping you back from your life 
You believe that there's nothing and there is no one 
Who can make it right 

Chorus: 
There is hope for the helpless 
Rest for the weary 
And love for the broken heart 
There is grace and forgiveness 
Mercy and healing 
He'll meet you wherever you are 
Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus 

For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on 
They've lost all of their faith in love 
And they've done all they can to make it right again 
Still it's not enough 

For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains 
You try to give up but you come back again 
Just remember that you're not alone in your shame 
And your suffering 

Chorus: 

When your lonely 
And it feels like the whole world is falling on you 
You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus 
Cry to Jesus 

To the widow who suffers with being alone 
Wiping the tears from her eyes 
For the children around the world without a home 
Say a prayer tonight 

-Zhang

stranger than fiction

This thing called life confounds me.
i've gotta hope that there's something more to it than meets the eye
and have faith when reason seems to elude me.
and stop being an ass.

I see an inherent hypocrisy within all of us.

what is the measure of a man anyway?

there are times when i just wanna give up
but then something stranger than fiction happens.

and i find myself back to square one.

"its your godforsaken right to be loved, loved, loved."- Mr Mraz 

-Zhang

i have a problem.

i'm solving it.

-Zhang

"Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Phil 3:13-14